Nothing Much

That’s my answer whenever someone asks me what’s new in my life. And it’s sad but true. It’s also annoying when people ask you the same questions multiple times in the same conversation. It’s hard enough to think of an interesting anecdote to entertain you and you want me to come up with another one? You didn’t even listen to the first story I told!

I don’t know if I’ll keep writing in here or not, but I’m trying something new. Just to see what happens. And I don’t want to fill up my hard drive with crap and I think I don’t really care if I lose this or not so I’ll do it here.

I’m getting old. I can’t just go out and exercise whenever I want, I have to do things properly, like stretch and make sure my muscles are strong enough to handle the exercise, and they weren’t so I got injured and have been for months. Not seriously of course, I never work out hard enough to cause serious injury, just enough to sideline me from any strenuous activity. Just enough to be annoying because I was just getting into fairly good shape and I’ve lost some fat too, and now I can’t do much running without being in pain or causing more pain, so I’m not going to run for a while. In the mean time I’m doing knee and hip strengthening exercises. It’s kind of boring, but I think it’s helping and also I think I’ll start doing some yoga so that I can get back some of my flexibility, which I totally took for granted. I can’t believe I have hip pain at my age.

I started listening to some happier music, I think it helps with my mood. It’s kind of amazing how that can make a difference. I was listening to a lot of sad stuff before I guess. I still like the sad stuff the best though, especially when you can feel the sadness in the singer’s voice. I can’t sing like that. I’ve tried. I can’t express much emotion in singing, or perhaps even when speaking. I don’t like to listen to my voice, so it’s hard to tell, but I think I would not be a great actor.

I saw a concert last week. That’s where the happy music came from. I should go to concerts more often. It made me want to sing and play music again. I hadn’t been listening to much music before the concert, but now I have a whole bunch of new songs to listen to.

I woke up early today, but not too early, it’s the time that I would like to work towards getting up at, and I even felt like I probably should get up, but then I was kind of bummed out that I could actually sleep a bit more and so maybe I shouldn’t get up yet, and then I turned the TV on and started to get sleepy again and then I slept in. What a waste of time. I waste a lot of time in front of the television. It’s like time stops and sucks me into a vortex and I can’t get out unless there’s a commercial break, but the TV is always there sucking me back in after the commercials are done. I could even tape the show but I don’t because usually I don’t really care if I see it or not. That’s how I know I’m wasting time. If I could tape it and I don’t, it means that I’m not really that interested in watching it. It means that I’m just trying to avoid what I would otherwise be doing. I know all this already. Just maybe if I put it in writing and type and read it, it will sink in and I’ll do something about it. Maybe seeing entries, so many entries will make me realize how much time has passed and how much I could be doing with my time. I don’t want to make myself feel terrible, or anxious, but just make a change. That’s all. Change.