Buttons

Sometimes I get unreasonably irritated by things that shouldn’t even bother me, things that shouldn’t be given another thought, things that matter so little in the grand scheme of things. If you do things with good intent, to spread knowledge or be helpful, or whatever, but with a good heart, and your actions or words are misinterpreted and not appreciated, it’s not your fault, it’s just life. It’s what happens. You can only be what you are. It’s pointless to get annoyed or obsessed over other peoples actions. You can only control how you feel and how you react, and it’s a waste of time to think about what others are thinking, or could be thinking, or especially to overthink your own actions. Not that you should act without thinking, but really, too much thinking is often not necessary, and it usually results in the same action as if you had just done what you were going to do without all the overthinking, and then it could have saved you some time. Don’t waste time feeling pissed off at strangers who don’t even know you, and you don’t even know them, or if they can read. 

I suspect that these emotions may stray out of the range of normal under the circumstances, but I can also identify people who would feel the same way as me, and this makes me feel better, less freakish. 

The sky is grey and it’s probably going to rain by the time I want to go home. I still have to meet my page quota. I should stop checking the internet. Who cares really. It doesn’t matter. It really doesn’t matter. 

I wish there was a button to press so that you could shut off certain parts of your brain. And let the other ones keep doing their job. That would be awesome. You could minimize distractions that way and then set a timer or something so that you could turn that part on when you had some free time and could deal with being distracted.